Friends ha what are those!

Yeah fuckers!

I’m clearly not good at anything
Best thing I’m good at is fucking up
I’ll never be good enough I’ll never do anything right

I’m honestly better off dead and I’m seriously thinking about it
Maybe it’s all I want to be honest
Maybe I should just grow a set and jump
I know everyone would and will be much better off without me

I wish tonight I could sleep with you

When hi I’m ok I love you means everything

I can’t help anyone
I can’t help myself
I’m jobless
I’m nothing
I’m a mess
I don’t know what I’m doing here
I’m scared to live but I’m scared to kill myself
I know war is bad but I want to be in it its all I want I’d be happy there
I’m basically dead already I don’t exist
I know you’ll read this and think its your fault well it’s not it’s my own
I should have believed in my heart not my head because I would be now serving my country and have you it’s all I want it’s all I need
I want you to be proud of me
I want to be proud of myself
I want a good job
A good life
Awesome money
Awesome car
I want to leave Newcastle forever
People may think I’m attention seeking all I can say is get licked and fuck off
Meeting you was one of the greatest moments of my life
All I want is to be somebody and matter
I’m not good at anything I can’t build I can’t fix cars I can’t do all that trade shit
All I know is I don’t want to live like this anymore
I hate being bored I hate having pretend fucking friends! I hate everyone besides my bestfriend she’s a goddess :) her name is Maddy Wildschut
People think I want to go to war because of movies like black hawk down and tears of the sun well it’s not
I want to remembered not forgotten
I want to do something good with my life not become a bum
I want respect
I want to be actually liked by people not hated or judged
I don’t know who I am anymore
I’m scared of losing you
I need you
I always need you
We are bestfriends
I don’t need to talk to other girls to be happy
I’m happy with you I just need to do this I need to go to the army and do right things
I know your scared but believe me I’ll be fine
I guess if you can’t kill me what can ;)
I don’t know what’s happening to me
End of story.

I could down 2 bottles of these right now!